28 END OF THE INVESTIGATION

28 END OF THE INVESTIGATION



A trillion of trillions of years later …

Ah, the letters! Suddenly I understood(included) that the language was the final key to solve the riddle. The proto-languages appear an alone time and for an alone person, as I said before. This common language was implying a link between(among) an alone man with it(him) itself, impossible between(among) two different ones. This way, M and L were with complete certainty an alone person, and in addition M, L and I we had to be the same person also. I could not escape of this conclusion.
But I should not scare; this was not implying madness. They were in me, but not as other personalities, but as abstractions.
I had lost the aptitude to my relation deal and recognize them with naturalness with them. I was astonishing at his(her,your) existence as a senile man he(she) astonishes that calls him by his(her,your) name, on not having recognized it. If the humanity was in the most distant and sharp(acute) of his(her,your) senility as species(kind), how was I thinking it not to be also, being a human being? I was like a subject that goes for something and on having come, he(she) forgets what moved it, as the moribund one amazed still(yet) of having a body and of that there speak to him(her) those who now it(he,she) does not know.
If this was like that, it(he) was not alienated, but the oldness already would be very advanced in me, spoiling my mind, and my death had to be very near(next). It(he,she) had failed on having tried to save myself, had not cheated completely the Mekhanes, the death was winning.
In the same way(Alike) that the oldness of the species(kind) us has turned to all blind persons and insufficient for the world, in my brief life was repeating itself this slow death of the humanity.
My general incomprehension was persisting on the meaning of diverse neologisms. I was thinking about deducing his(her,your) meaning sometimes, but new letters were contradicting the senses that it(he,she) was giving them.
When I gave up continuing formally the investigation(research) on M, L and the free world of the Thecnetos, already it(he,she) was going time unbelievingly in her(it). With this planet the conscience of what we do does not coincide with what we do, but it(he,she) follows(continues) his(her,your) distant fingerprints. We notice what we are very later of it being and almost only we know what we were never doing and what we do.
We live(inhabit) and understand(include) the past, the present is blurry. Probably now I think what happened(passed) many years ago and report the past of other one with which I share the body nor the mind.
The present always is an earring for the future of the one who knows who.
In this planet the resignation also comes very rapidly, before the hope shows itself at least. This way I accepted that me it would touch to see much less neither neither to influence the distant M and L to escape of the Thecnetos, if perhaps it(he,she) existed. The Emissary was also unattainable.
I met foreign to this language in spite of his(her,your) pseudo -familiarity, felt pity and maybe a bit of love for me itself. Then I consoled myself thinking that probably in me was slept the faculty(power) to understand the letters, though it(he,she) was never doing it and that it was not important if I did not understand them. They were important because they made a sense for yes same and for another world to which they concerned(belonged), from that missed they had come to me. And it was - I believe(create) - beautifully. I resolved not to return to cheat the Mekhanes and to return to my natal ruins until it(he,she) was ending my life and the world. He(she) could not have dealt why the reality was like that.
Not much less in what "age". But already it(he,she) was not mattering.

In distant regions, in the top of some dead building, it(he,she) was giving up the pedacitos that it(he,she) was doing with the letters already without reading. They were days of resignation and also of tedium. I gave in thinking that the incomprehension of the reasons of the world, in a humanity lacking in any type of instruction, makes turn out to be these and other mirages in the life of the modern man. This way the Thecnetos was nourishing and assuring a passive attitude opposite to the disposition(regulation) and structure of the world. To stop to happen(pass) and to forget was now the mission of the man.